After giving everything I possible could and dedicating my life to serving my husband, I heard what I had suspected for the last 2 years. Not one week after returning from his latest deployment, my husband informed me that he no longer is in love with me or happy in our marriage.
I spent the better part of the last few days racking my brain and trying figure out where I went wrong, what I did to make him fall out of love with me - was the house not clean enough? did I not lose the baby weight fast enough? did I push him to having kids he really didn't want? - the list goes on and on. Then I spend the other hours stressing on how bad this will screw up my beautiful girls?? How can I protect them from this turmoil and confusion?
My husband seems to have no questions or regrets about the decision to separate, as demonstrated by his usual absenteeism and dedication to all things duck hunting. We only speak about things necessary, which is nice because there are no fights, or discuss how to handle certain issues of the separation.
How the heck did I get here?!
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